HAHAHA fckn Milo
It’s been a while since I’ve taken a look at some sneakers, but after my mate asked me about it, I actually decided to look around at the forums and sites I usually go on to look at sneakers. He also asked what shoes I’d recommend to wear on the court. I told him it was more of a personal choice rather than a recommendation from someone else. Although I thought about it and I’ve decided on what I thought my top 5 basketball shoes are:
5. Under Armour Micro G Black Ice
I just thought these shoes were really simple yet cool in a way. The design of it is actually not bad and it seems really comfortable to wear, so I wouldn’t mind having these on my feet. It’s funny how it wasn’t Brandon Jennings that got me looking at these shoes; it was these shoes that got me watching Brandon Jennings in the NBA.
4. Nike Zoom KD IV
I didn’t get to look at sneakers much in 2012 cause of VCE, but I think that these shoes are by far the best basketball shoe of that year. I’m just a fan of that strap on the shoe, not sure why. Then again, I’m also a fan of Kevin Durant…so maybe that has some impact on why I like this shoe.
3. Adidas AdiZero Ghost
I never got to wear this shoe, but man it looks so good. I remember when I was versing Wellington for the District competition I saw a mate wear these and I just couldn’t take my eyes off them. If I had a choice to wear an Adidas shoe, it’d be this one, nothing else.
2. Air Jordan Retro Shanghai Shen 5
If any of you guys get me this, I will love you forever. I want these so bad and I search day and night for them, but I just can’t find them in Australia. I mean, they’re obviously exclusive to China, but still. I just hope that one day I’ll be able to go to China and get this beautiful pair of kicks, I don’t really care what price I’d have to pay for this…I just have that “I need ‘em” mentality for these pair of sneakers. The colourway of it just reminds me of the times I use to play ball for Wellington, since the uniform was a beautiful royal blue and yellow, much like this shoe.
1. Nike Hyperize
I don’t think anything will ever make me lose my love for these shoes. I remember these were the first pair of basketball sneakers I ever wore, and I still have that same pair. I’d love to have this colourway though, looks beautiful. But overall, it’s just so comfortable…I feel like I can break the sound barrier when I’m running with these since it’s so light. My love for these sneakers will never go away.
Anytime I talk to you…or anyone actually, I feel like I’m annoying you and it just makes me feel like shit, like I shouldn’t bother trying for anyone or anything anymore. Yeah, you’re still one of the most important people in my life, but I don’t think it’s mutual…translating that I am most likely wasting my time TRYING to start a conversation.
Then again, I suppose I should be more rational about things cause yeah, exams are coming up soon and you’re probably busy. I just honestly hope you don’t really think of me as a nobody.
HAHAHA fckn Milo
I swear to god it’s like you want me to fail VCE of some shit, lol. I honestly made the biggest mistake feeling sorry for you over and over again. Fuck this, this is the last time I’ll ever do something for you again.
Well how about that…halfway through the year already…it’s all going so fast lol. There’s no way I’m ready for mid-years, I can’t even keep up with homework right now. Oh my goodness, what a half-year stretch it has been…so many downs, but with that…it makes me appreciate the little things in the day that much more.
I’m basically up still because I just decided to take a break from making Crystal’s photo book. This photo book is for her birthday by the way…which is like all the way in late October. I figured that since this is our last year at JMSS, I thought she’d like to have something that she will definitely remember us by. Also, I found out that I should probably get her a novel for her birthday as well…she still doesn’t know that anon was me, HAHA.
But I like doing mmm…I guess we’ll call them ‘projects’; I like doing projects like these. Taking the time to make or think of something for someone’s birthday, even though it may be like 4 months away…it’s probably one of the things that make me feel accomplished for when I actually finish that particular project. As stupid as it sounds, I also actually enjoy the sound and sign of happiness from people for when I do something for their birthday, I feel like I’ve done something right for once, haha. Really, I’ve been saving up for a bunch of things for when I move out to my own space: a new laptop, gaming peripherals, new computer, new desk, etcetera…but then I have this even bigger feeling which overcomes me, that makes me want to give…to give back to everyone and everything that’s you know…made me the person I am today. I can’t thank those people and things enough, for developing the man inside.
But yeah, late night…in my opinion, worth it. I’ll strive to make that photo book perfect, it’s probably the best way I can tell Crystal that I appreciate her presence and that she’s had a big impact on my life.
And omg, I tried out the new mouse that Steven got me…HOMG THE AMOUNT OF JIZZ WORTHINESS. IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT, I FEEL SO BAD NOW. I PROBABLY HAVE TO GET HIM A WIRELESS 10000 DPI MOUSE WITH 0 LATENCY.
Yeah, you’re the reason that I’m in school, trying to get that degree that you’ve always wanted me to get. You’re probably the reason that I’m still working in school, otherwise I’d be doing something else. I honestly don’t have a goal, just passions, but don’t try and tell me what my life goal is and what my own passions are, cause there’s no way in hell that I like studying. In case you didn’t know, you’re also the reason I’m stressing out everyday; the reason that I cry every night; the reason that I’m failing at school. You seriously made me so distressed from when I started school. If you nor ‘dad’ were never in my life from the time I came here to jmss, then I reckon I’d still be doing as well as I did back at Wellington. I really just want to leave the house and start my life new, without you in it. Yeah, I get that I’m your only son and shit, but you’ve got other children incase you haven’t realised. Stop stressing over Julie getting ‘only’ an 85.00 ATAR. My fucking god, I’ll show you how to be grateful to your kids’ efforts by doing worst than that purposely.
I’m ruthless enough to say to your face one day “I don’t care what you’re doing for me” or “I hate you” or “I’d much rather not have you in my life” because honestly … it’s all true.
It was really hot so I ended getting only 4 hours of sleep, with my blanket off as well. But Phillip woke me up at around 6 anyway since he couldn’t sleep either due to the hot weather. I just gave up on going back to sleep so I just went on YouTube on my phone until like 9 -.-‘
I finally got out of bed and got ready to go city. When I arrived at the station I saw my niece, Zeyi who was apparently going Noble Park……..for some reason. Anyway, I also ended up seeing Anna all alone at the train station so I had to dog Zeyi; felt so bad. So Anna and I just waited and waited for Silvie and Phillip and just mucked around calling each other gay, as per usual, LOL. We decided to call Phil and Silvie since they’re were a bit late. And well….Phillip missed the bus….so he told us to go on without him and that he’ll meet us at MC. Silvie finally showed up so we got on the train, and the conversations we had……well Silvie was saying to Anna “OMG, Anna look at this dress I got. How good does my………” and then she just paused so I was like “rack?” and then she goes “yeah, how did you know? But look, doesn’t my rack look good in this?” Yeaaaaahhhh, glad to have Silvie around LOL.
We got off at MC and the two girls immediately went shopping for their clothes, nail polish, shoes, et cetera et cetera. Oh yeah, it was awkward for me just watching them picking them out and stuff being the only guy in a women’s store. But later on, THANKFULLY Phillip finally made it and we decided to go have some lunch, since it took Phil like an hour to get to MC …
We decided on having Maccas anyway since we weren’t really that hyped for a special lunch or something LOL. Later on, we made our way to Passionflower, only the most orgasmic ice-cream store you will ever step into. Anna and Silvie had shared their one dessert, Western Sunset, which was simply a waffle cone served with Strawberry, Chocolate and Vanilla ice-cream as well as banana wedges, whipped cream, chocolate fudge sauce with a nice strawberry cut into the shape of a flower on top! I of course had my Geisha-san which was apparently translated to “prostitute” in Japanese, but you know what … yolo. And Phillip’s was just … like chocolate on top of chocolate on top of chocolate on top of chocolate, just all in different forms, LOL. I decided to pay for them for two reasons:
Next, we finally went to go play some pool, the most anticipated thing of the day. This was actually going to be my first time, and I thought we were gonna go to Room 8 to play. Thankfully, we have Phillip to tell us that Room 8 was basically a rape dungeon and there was a better one further down the road. Cue City it was called, and the place is really nice. The tables were clean, the cue balls were clean and they had arcade games as well, like damn that place was dead perfect. So it was gonna be my first time hitting a ball with a stick … again, thankfully I had Phillip there to teach me. It was actually a pretty simple process, hit the ball in the middle. And amazingly, it was fun LOL. Silvie and Anna were telling me I was full of shit and today wasn’t my first time playing, because I ended up sinking more balls in than them on my practice round LOL. Anna and I had a match, I amazingly won that.
But all-in-all I actually had a good time. It was good to have a bit of time with a few of the people that I love before the New Year starts. I’m actually really grateful to have those people in my life.
The fact that I’ve showed my love for basketball, sneakers and headphones … I almost forgot how much I loved architecture and interior designing, particularly in school facilities, local libraries and of course, homes.
Judge me if you will, but I’ve always had a love for the designing and concepts put into both public and private buildings. Like when I first came to JMSS, I never actually realised it but the first thing I was excited about was the facility … even though it was practically one building. What I liked was, the school looked very modern (well no shit considering the school is like 3 years old) and didn’t look like such a hole like some other schools did (no offence to anyone).
Just about a week ago, I found out about this ongoing TV series called “Australia’s Best Houses” while I was just flicking through channels since I was bored. I only just happen to see one of the houses they showcased on the episode, but oh my … it was one of the most beautiful houses I have seen in hell of a long time. Then I ended up looking for any of the previous episodes I missed out on because I really wanted to know more about this series. When I finally found the catch-up episodes … oh man the amount of houses I jizzed over … I regret nothing.
About half an hour ago, I watched another episode of the TV series and the beauty of those houses I saw couldn’t be measured. I saw a house which was surprisingly located in the eastern suburbs of Melbourne, and it had a golf green in their backyard along with an elevated pool (basically a pool above ground level, so it gives you a nice view of whatever you want to see around you). That episode not only gave me more ideas as to what I want to live in when I grow up, but also what I want my mum to live in. When she retires, I want to make sure she knows that her children is so grateful as to what she’s done for us.
I know majority of people would call me queer for having an interest in something like this, but I really do want to have a profession in this kinda field. I mean, most people would want to love where they live, right? (At the least not hate their home) Then I don’t see as to why not you would put some time and effort into planning and designing your home. When people come back from a hard day at work/school, I’d actually want to have them have a nice break from it in their home: perhaps a quick swim in the house pool, bit of alone time in your balcony with a nice view, or maybe a nice chill game of billiards in your games room.
I suppose all of these ideas sound a bit stupid, but I’m actually pretty excited about moving out and living in my own home, because when I do, I can just imagine the kind of home I’d want to live in. I mean, my girlfriend and I are already having a talk about what kind of house we’d like to live in and where we’d like to live. We both agreed to work hard, so that we’d be able to have a job which would earn us the money to be able to build the kind of houses we want. I’m pretty excited.
Everyday of the week, I feel like I’m good enough to act out that I’m okay, so people at school don’t really know how fucked up I’m feeling. It’s so easy to put up a smile on my face in front of people, even to those who would expect me to look depressed and whatnot.
But when I’m alone … I just don’t know why I can’t do the same, every time I come back home or at the least, away from everyone, I just break down and feel like it’ll be good to just sleep and never wake up again. I cry every night and I’ve even made cuts to my wrist, but I don’t know why I still feel pain. I feel so weak talking to people about it, and plus they might not even care about my troubles.
I’ve had so many thoughts and dreams about making it all end, in the way that for some reason most people don’t agree with. I had a dream about putting a gun to my head on my balcony, because hanging myself was obviously not a quick enough death. When I pulled the trigger on that gun, I just felt so ….. relaxed. I really need to find myself a gun; it’s not so painful, even so it’ll last like 2-3 seconds and then I won’t have to feel anymore pain … like ever again. The feeling must be so nice.
Today was a good day. Very relaxing and not so stressful at all. Had a day out with the friends and it was good to see them again. One of the best things was my ‘father’ had left for Sydney; I’m hoping he’s doing that permanently although I highly doubt it.
So I woke up at around 9ish and then I got a bunch of texts from Anna waking me up, since she promised to do so. I decided to go to state library first thing during the day since I wanted to get some productivity going on. Turns out Anna was already there and so I just made my way to state library myself. I was cautious about passing through Myki gates since one of the workers there caught me with an expired concession card yesterday, lololol -.- Thankfully I got through without being pulled over. And so I headed to State but unfortunately my bag was too big to be able to get into the library… I swear this is probably the one way that libraries make money besides the fees for late item returns. As dog as that system is, having to pay for lockers if your bag wasn’t big enough, it’s a pretty damn smart idea. So I just ended up going to RMIT library, which I forgot how much better it was and the amount of work I could get done in there.
Later on, we were suppose to go to the tram and meet up with the rest at Flinders, but I got a text from Anna saying “I’m waiting at the tram stop right now with Jason Tran” oh my goodness, how awkward of a tram ride it was going to be, once again being the 3rd wheel haha….. but it wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be, although I did catch Anna looking a bit … eh, but I didn’t want to ask. After all, she had Tran there to calm her down.
But yes we finally met up with Sangwon, Crystal, Michelle and Clarence. But UNFORTUNATELY, the place we had planned to go to was closed, so we went to another Korean restaurant right next door LOL. The food was still so nice though <3 During our lunch, I caught a voice memo of Crystal answering to my question “Do you miss Simon/Arjun?” and of course, as Crystal would normally do, she would say “YES, OMG I MISS HIM, IT’S SO DEPRESSING” even though it was a joke HAHAHAHAHA
Later on we went to play some pool at cue city and oh boy, it was so much fun playing pool again, even though I played like last week before today, lolol. Damn, how I wish I had my game back like I did on the very first game of pool I played, Master Luuluu was such a good teacher. I had a team game between Michelle/Anna vs. Jason/myself. Oh dear, how happy I was to have Tran on my team, he is a pool god. Of course, the boys won and so I had my next team game, this time I was paired up with Crystal vs. Michelle/Clarence. The amount of shit Crystal was copping, I commend her tolerance for us I swear, haha. But all-in-all, she did a pretty good job as my team-mate and of course thanks to her, I won my 2nd match, haha.
It was time for Crystal, Sangwon and I to go and all of us were gonna split into different train lines and what not, but I decided that Crystal probably wanted some company on her line, so I did end up taking the Glen line with her, and frankly, I’m glad that I did. I certainly didn’t forget how much Crystal and I would talk every now and then, and I certainly didn’t forget how much she opened up to me, even though it may not have been such of a big deal to her. So it was good to have a chat with her again, and I mean a decent chat. But of course, once we got off the train, we’d have to go to separate buses, sad sad. However, it was good to hear her say “We should have more talks like that!”, it just makes me happy to know that she doesn’t fake the friendship we have.
Overall, I liked today…nice food, a bit of productivity in the morning, awesome people, good time playing pool and a nice catch up with one of my good friends. Oh, and definitely the fact that my ‘father’ left the house…for now.